Figuring Out Who You Are Is The Whole Point Of The Human Experience.

So, today is the day, I pursue my nursing degree. You have to start somewhere and this is apparently the starting point when going back to school:

Step 1: Admissions Application-Check
Step 2: Free Application for Federal Student Aid-Check
Step 3: Check the status of your financial aid
Step 4: Applying for student loans online-I'm hoping I won't have to use loans this time around
Step 5: Other requirements for aid eligibility

This is just the beginning of the checklists. This is just to get back into college. Once I complete this process, I have a whole other list waiting for me to actually enroll in classes and start taking classes. Oh, how I don't miss these days. You should earn some type of degree or recognition to just enroll in a college and classes. Seriously. The nursing program is a whole different story and lists upon lists. I will not be discouraged, I will continue on...

Caesar, when embarking in a storm, said that is was not necessary he should live, but that it was absolutely necessary he should get to the place to which he was going.

Before I can even think about applying for the nursing program I have to finish up some pre-requirement classes that I didn't need to complete my business degree. Another list. A list of three biology classes with labs and a chemistry class with a lab. I will start these classes in the fall. Or at least that is the plan. I still have this other list of grants and scholarships I have to do research on. Which I need to get started on...

Pursue some path, however narrow and crooked, in which you can walk with love and reverence.

Just Me

So, I decided to start a new blog. Why? Well, for several reasons. First, this one is free! Second, I just wanted to start fresh with a new look or outlook. Third, I'm taking on a new attitude in life!

I am 32 and am finding that since turning 30 and having kids, these have been the hardest years of my life. (I had Alex when I was 25) Some might find this odd I know. It is what it is. The hardest thing I have found about these years is finding myself. I have a hard time determinig who I am anymore. Besides mom and wife. I think I lost who I am or who I want to be. So, this blog is all about, well, me. Me just being me and finding me again. I don't have a glorified job, I don't have a lot of money, I don't have a perfect body, and my outlook on things can honestly, be, well, questionable. (If you don't have a sense of humor)

What I do have is a great family, and a job (thank you God) a wonderful home and great friends. I do love my friends and family. My goal is to find the good in everything, things happen for a reason, good and bad. Another part of my goal, to surrond myself with people that won't judge me for being me and accept me for who I am. Lastly, do the things in my life that make me feel good about myself and give me a sense of accomplishment. I will start living that part of life I have placed on the shelf, for me, about me. It doesn't all have to be about the kids! They already took the best parts of my body, what more do they want from me?

There are probably a lot of things you don't know about me. Only for the stupid reason that I don't show a lot of who I am. Why? Because I'm stupid and worry about what people will think of me. That people will judge me. Done with that. Think what you will of me and then, do me a favor. Go and look in the mirror! Guess what? You are not perfect. Repeat after me, you are not perfect.

So, if you want, sit back and be prepared because from here on out, it's just me! And guess what? I don't care if you don't like it ; ) Have a happy day!

Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow. Don't walk behind me, I may not lead. Walk beside me and be my friend.